Miss Me Not by Tiffany King

"They had a pact.
Leave the world behind much as they had lived it.
No one would miss them. No harm, no foul.
Their personal demons would be left behind once and for all.
It was the only thing they could count on.
It was all she had.
Madison Hanson has spent the last four years being a "shadow." Her parents ignore her. The students at her school stopped talking to her years ago, and the majority of her teachers forget she's even there. In her desperate yearning to leave her invisible life behind, Madison makes a pact with her only friend, James Garrison, to end their lives as inconspicuously as they live them. No fuss, no muss. No one would miss her and she would miss no one. Their plan is set, and it's all she can count on. That is, until fellow student, Mitch Peterson, beats them to the punch. Everything Madison believed in is shaken to the core when she watches the aftermath of Mitch's death unfold. By taking his own life, Mitch unwittingly saves hers. What a selfish prick.
She is now left with the daunting task of living. Trying to bury her demons once and for all, and finally trusting someone with her fragile existence.
Living is hell.
Death would have been so much easier." -Goodreads.com

Ok so there is so much I connected with in Miss Me Not.... So much that I keep deleting from this post because I'm just not quite there saying it all out loud... Long story short was raised in a very strict christian home (was at church at least 4 days a week, and had to drive almost a hour to get there) and went through some stuff, not the same as what Madison went through but it messed me up. A lot. And this book here years later has helped me to know I'm not alone. Because you really don't see that many books (or at least I haven't) about how it can mess up kids who were forced to be in a church's childcare many times each week. And that growing up you didn't see how not normal that is... And that's what happened to Madison in Miss Me Not, by making choices to try to get her parents to notice her they ended up hurting herself, and people blaming her when she was just only 13 when it happened....
I don't know if it really even makes sense about all I feel about the book but I basically love it. Am seriously having to hit the delete button many times on this post so it wont be to personal...

5 stars.

Read from February 15 to 16, 2013